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The Uncertainty : the other side

It was there in the family, I have been observing it; the people behave as if they were born to burn. They raised me,  and praised me; that I would become a part of their legacy. But I saw the worry, from the people behind; that I would become a part of the legacy. I decided to stop it, to work it and override it; I told myself I'd become a great partner, if not the best. One day I saw you, to realize that I can't unsee you; I thought you and I will be stars and sky. I dealt with the conflict, of me being with you, versus you staying with me; I did not choose regret. I was relieved when I proposed to you; that finally, you knew, how much I love you. I never felt happier than the day you replied; you gave me a chance, to be with you. here I am, now,  remembering those days; where your eyes and smile, did their magic on me. here I am, now, trembling to think; when your eyes and smile, stopped living with me. I remember the days, when I was not the person, whom you promised, to n...

The Fault - Part 4

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*** Missed part three? Click  here ! Want to read from the start? Click  here ! *** Rekha likes quiet early mornings, where there are no man-made sounds, but just cute discussions of the birds about world affairs in a secret language. She has been demanding more solitude for herself recently. After doing the daily chores, she looks for the status of the applications at various companies. It's been about a month since she left her job. She wonders how she had to leave the job even though it was not her fault. She was trying to be herself. She said she wanted to be herself. But her colleagues had not understood it. They thought she was bossy. They thought she was selfish. They did not realize they were contradicting their own definition of freedom, as if it was not applicable to women.  They wanted to control her. They showed that they would control others against her. But her colleagues had not understood it. She did not ask them to treat her in a special way. She was aski...

The Uncertainty

  I still remember you, welcoming me into your life; You said "Give me a chance, will surprise you every day." I believed you, so I gave you a chance, the chance to be with me, the chance to surprise me. I did not remember, how or when, your surprises had, become uncertainties. I did not remember, when I had become alien to you; or when you became alien to me. Gone were those days - when we cuddled each other, when we toured the city, when we shared our thoughts. I could no more predict, what you like, when you return, where you sleep; I could no more predict, reason for your anger, reason for your absence, reason for your silence. I adjusted myself, that it is normal; but realized I never did to you, what you did to me. I cursed myself, that I was the reason; but realized I fooled myself, when you said sorries. I prepared myself, to forgive you; but realized you never knew, what I was going through. I promised you, that I never leave you; but you were not the same, so neithe...

The Conversation - 5

*** Missed part 4 ? Click  here Want to know from the start? Click  here *** "Hello, Rohan...", Apoorva lifted the call. "Hey, how are you doing?" "Yeah, good. How are you?" "Yeah, I am not bad either." "How is Abha?" "Yeah, she is fine." "Good to hear, Rohan. Tell me, what else?" What else? This triggered a smile on Rohan's face. He thought that she smiled on the other side too. Whenever one of them asks "What else", it means that the war horn is blown. Both will just keep on passing the question to each other.  "What else?" "You tell me, what else" "No, you tell me" "No, you" This will keep on till one of them surrenders. Mostly it is Rohan, or sometimes Apoorva when she got too bored of winning. So, after many days, the game was back. "You tell me Apoorva, what else?" There was a moment of silence. He was waiting for her reply. He decided not to give ...

A notes on her

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 The Intro "Which floor are you on?" she messaged. I have been waiting for her for a few minutes now. I am in the mall on some floor (I just know that it is not the ground floor), holding a bag of items that I purchased earlier. When she asked for the floor, I gave the surroundings a rough look and quickly replied "1st." But after a few seconds, I realized that I was actually on the 2nd floor. Scolding my lazy brain, I grabbed the nearby elevator and reached the first floor. So, here I am, waiting for her, the moment nearing with every passing second. I noticed that my heartbeat started racing. The calmness is slowly fading away in the light of excitement and nervousness.  I planned to spend the time very efficiently once she arrived so that every second would store the memories equivalent to an hour. But my brain might have started doing that from now. I can hear nothing but my heartbeat, but it is going very slow - L..U..B..D..U..B... Then I am drawn into a movie....

The Fault - Part 3

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*** Missed part two? Click here ! Want to read from the start? Click  here ! *** Sumit is standing near the top of the cliff while the Sun is preparing to call it a day. The cool breeze is giving him company. He closes his eyes to register the scenery deep in his heart. After a few moments, he opens his eyes and gets startled to see someone near the cliff's edge. The silhouette looks like a woman. She is not watching the sun. She is watching him. Does she know him? Or, does he know her? He decides to move towards her. She is wearing a black scarf around her neck, which is swinging opposite to the direction of the wind. As soon as he starts walking, she also starts moving. After a few steps, he realises it - she is moving, but not towards him. "Hey, what are you doing?", Sumit shouts. Now he starts running. "Stop! Stop moving that way..!", he screams. She stops at the edge of the cliff. He is still running to catch her before she can do something horrible. While ...

The Conversation - 4

*** Missed part 3 ? Click here Want to know from the start? Click here *** "Hello, Rohan?", Apoorva lifts the call. "Hi, how are you?", says Rohan. "Yeah, I am great. How are you?" His voice starts to tremble. What should be his reply to the question? He cannot lie to her. But he cannot hide the truth either. "I don't know, Apoorva. It's hurting, even though I prepared for this moment." "Maybe you just underestimated it, like every time you do." Yes, she is right. She was there with him - When he used to play till one day before the exam and got panicked after that; When he boasted to run for five km. at a stretch but started to pant after a few metres; When his drawings were a piece of crap but he felt as a Picasso. He remembered her laughing till she complained of a stomachache. When he remembers them today - the day before her marriage, he realises what he has done to himself. The memories that he created all these years, to ...